the last few days -- or weke, really -- have been pretty horrific. first of all i withdrew from my SNRI, venlafaxine, which was horrible -- brainzaps constantly. it wasn't nice. and it looks like i have to break up with my girlfriend, because she's broken my heart. it really hurts, but i can't degrade myself and subject myself to lower than i know i need.
at least theone thing i have learnt from the cycle of abuse is that i cannot allow it to keep happening to myself, and i cannot perpetrate it upon myself.
today is a hard one, and so has the last week, but at least i've been able to avoid drugs -- to be honest, that's mostly because i have none of them -- but it's good i didn't get any. and i'm back to work tomorrow. i'm proud of myself for not hurting myself or something else.
the most hurtful thing of this happening is that i really thought my life was changing, that i had hope for the future. and i don't know h ow i'll progress now. i can't really fight my life for myself. but maybe that's somethig else i need to learn by now, at 23.
my room is a mess too.
today i'm going to finally play the long-awaited kirby dlc. here's some music
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CMyvIDLAub